Friday, December 24, 2010

its been a while since the last update.
perhaps the hectic life is the reason.
here's my latest cover.

i know im not good in singing low note..sound like whispering isn't it?
i'll try to improve next time...hee

both were request from a friend,and my bestfriend's sister.













p/s:i do hope i know how to give up on certain things in my life.

Monday, December 6, 2010

monday,6 december 2010,11.59 a.m



I Don't Wanna Fall Out
But We're All Out Of Time
(Is This Over?)
(Don't Want An Ending)

In One Day,
No Way You'll Be Mine
(Is This Over?)
(Don't Want An Ending)

Mmmm... Don't Want An Ending

My Heart Is Running On Empty-
One More Day And Then We Go
And, Yeah, The Time Goes On Now
Don't Ask Me How,
I Don't Know.

We'll Be Home Tomorrow
About A Thousand Miles Too Far Away.
Say You Won't Forget
And I'll Be Okay.

At Least Tonight,
It's Just You and Me
And Honestly, That's Everything I Need.

I Don't Wanna Fall Out
But We're All Out Of Time
(Is This Over?)
(Don't Want An Ending)

In One Day,
No Way You'll Be Mine
(Is This Over?)
(Don't Want An Ending)

Tonight's A Countdown
Till The Day We're Not Around
(Is This Over?)
(Don't Want An Ending)

Then You're Gone,
And We're On With Our Lives
(Is This Over?)
I Don't Want An Ending

Noo... Don't Want An Ending

The Days Turn To Hours
And It's Just A Moment Before They Go
I'm Scared To Say Goodbye
'Cuz What's After That?
I Don't Know

And As The Years Slip Past Us,
If We Lose Track Or Lose The Fight
I Will Search Forever
To Find A Way Back

To Tonight,
Where It's Just You and Me
And Honestly, That's Everything I Need.

I Don't Wanna Fall Out
But We're All Out Of Time
(Is This Over?)
(Don't Want An Ending)

In One Day,
No Way You'll Be Mine
(Is This Over?)
(Don't Want An Ending)

Tonight's A Countdown
Till The Day We're Not Around
(Is This Over?)
(Don't Want An Ending)

Then You're Gone,
And We're On With Our Lives
(Is This Over?)
I Don't Want An Ending

We Say "See You Later" (See You Later)
But I Know There's No Way We're (There's No Way We're)
Around Here Again.
And Every "Until Next Time" (Until Next Time)
Feels Like One Bad Punchline
And I Don't Want That Again.

I Don't Wanna Fall Out
But We're All Out Of Time
(Is This Over?)
(Don't Want An Ending)

In One Day,
No Way You'll Be Mine
(Is This Over?)
I Don't Want An Ending

I Don't Wanna Fall Out
But We're All Out Of Time
(Is This Over?)
(Don't Want An Ending)

In One Day,
No Way You'll Be Mine
(Is This Over?)
I Don't Want An Ending

Tonight's A Countdown
Till The Day We're Not Around
(Is This Over?)
(Don't Want An Ending)

Then You're Gone,
(You're Gone)
And We're On With Our Lives
(Is This Over?)
I Don't Want An Ending

No... Woah... I... Don't Want An Ending.

We're All Out Of Time...
Don't Want An Ending
Mmmm... Don't Want An Ending.



it's what i feel yesterday.




p/s:there's a relationship that falls between love n friendship that remains untitled.and it's ours.happy birthday to you.

Monday, November 29, 2010

monday,29 november 2010,1.17 a.m







the latest cover..
i really have nothing to say about my day,my life,my feelings..
feels like giving up on everything,but i know thats not a choice
i want to do stand up n breath..
but the air just suffocating me.

my heart keep going back n forth
what should i do,what should i care.

Bila cinta kini
Tak lagi bermakna
Yang ku rasa kini
Hanyalah nestapa
Ditinggalkan cinta masa lalu

Dulu kau tawarkan
Manisnya janjimu
Yang ku sambut itu
Dengan segenap hatiku
Bila engkau pergi
Tinggalkanku

Hilangnya cintamu
Menusuk hatiku
Hingga ku memilih
Cinta yang fana

Perginya dirimu
merobek jantungku
Hingga ku terjatuh
Dalam harapan


i love this song..soothing




p/s:tons of work to do,but i dont know where to start,how should i end it.

Sunday, November 28, 2010

sunday,28 november 2010,1.15 a.m

i found this in facebook n i think this is so sweet n true.
i'm just copying it.




Mengapa Hawa tercipta saat Adam tertidur dan Hawa melahirkan saat dirinya terbangun?


Seorang laki-laki jika dia kesakitan, maka dia akan membenci. Sebaliknya wanita, saat dia kesakitan, maka semakin bertambah sayang dan cintanya,, Seandainya Hawa diciptakan dari Adam As saat Adam terjaga, pastilah Adam akan merasakan sakit keluarnya Hawa dari sulbinya, hingga dia membenci Hawa. Akan tetapi Hawa diciptakan dari Adam saat dia tertidur, agar Adam tidak merasakan sakit dan tidak membenci Hawa. Sementara seorang wanita akan melahirkan dalam keadaan terjaga, melihat kematian dihadapannya, namun semakin sayang dan cinta nya kepada anak yang dilahirkan bahkan ia akan menebus nya dengan kehidupannya.


Sesungguhnya Allah menciptakan Hawa dari tulang rusuk yang bengkok yang tugasnya adalah melindungi Qalbu(jantung, hati nurani). Oleh karena itu, tugas Hawa adalah menjaga qalbu. Kemudian Allah menjadikan nya bengkok untuk melindungi qalbu dari sisi yang kedua. Sementara Adam diciptakan dari tanah, dia akan menjadi petani, tukang batu, tukang besi, dan tukang kayu. Wanita selalu berinteraksi dengan perasaaan, dengan hati, dan wanita akan menjadi seorang ibu yang penuh kasih sayang, seorang saudari yang penyayang, seorang putri yang manja, dan seorang istri yang penurut.


Dan wajib bagi Adam untuk tidak berusaha meluruskan tulang yang bengkok tersebut, seperti yang dikabarkan oleh Nabi Muhammad SAW, “jika seorang lelaki meluruskan yang bengkok tersebut dengan serta merta, maka dia akan mematahkannya.” Maksud nya adalah dengan kebengkokan tersebut adalah perasaan yang ada pada diri seorang wanita yang mengalahkan perasaan seorang laki-laki.


Maka wahai Adam janganlah merendahkan perasaan Hawa, dia memang diciptakan seperti itu. Apabila seseorang wanita mengatakan dia sedang bersedih, tetapi dia tidak menitikkan airmata, itu berarti dia sedang menangis di dalam hatinya. Apabila dia tidak menghiraukan kamu setelah kamu menyakiti hatinya, lebih baik beri dia waktu untuk menenangkan hatinya sebelum kamu meminta maaf. Dan wanita sulit untuk mencari sesuatu yang dia benci untuk orang yang paling dia sayang....




isn't that sweet?:)
p/s:sikit lagi.

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

tuesday,23 november 2010,11:27 p.m







this song sound so sweet..
also the lyrics
credit to this blog.

IU (아이유) & Na Yoon Kwon (나윤권) - It's First Love (첫사랑이죠)


How is it that we, how is it that now
How is it that the two of us ended up here
Time passes by like the stars inside many people

Inside my heart (My heart)
Filling my eyes (Filling)
Is all of you (You)
Piling up
It seems that without any sound
Even our cold fingertips become warmer

*Even if we don’t speak
We’re filled in each other’s eyes
Now when you’re sick
I will feel your forehead

Let us not be afraid
It’s an exciting first love like honey
Carefully, day by day again
I will always love you*

Your face (When I)
That voice (Remember)
When I remember them (You)
My heart becomes flushed
The cold day, frozen in white
Seems to be melting away

Even if we can’t see
The hands we gave each other are pretty warm
On the nights that you can’t sleep
I will hold onto your hands

We trust each other
It’s a first love that twinkles like a star
Even if our hearts are pounding
Step by step again, I will get a little closer

Like the delightful first snow
I want to have my first kiss
With you, who came to me
I can hear your heart
It seems like the two of us
Are the only ones in the world

*Repeat

You’re my first love


comel kan?hehe






p/s:you know what's funny?
when i heard a nice duet song,i immedietly think'oh i want to sing this song'
but then i realize....'hmmm,i've no one to sing with me anymore'
funny isn't it?
haha...

tuesday,23 november 2010,6.51 a.m








i love this song,n the mv.
i love the lyrics,the voice of the singer is just perfect for the song.
feels like an ost for some korean drama.
doesnt the girl look a little bit like dian sastrowardoyo?heh
she's pretty,n the guy also good looking.

i like the storyline,when the girl trying to erase with the charcoal pencil meanwhile the guy is drawing with an eraser.a nice contradiction,isn't it?

this mv send me an idea,somehow,eventhough you try to erase something,but you're actually make it more vivid in your memory.

an eraser doesn't meant to be an eraser forever,they might be a tool for you to create something new.

simple,but meaningful huh?

im actually crying watching this mv,their crying and sadness were so real.

mana diorang dapat idea nak buat video clip simple,sedih,sweet mcm ni heh

Thursday, November 18, 2010

thursday,18 november 2010,2.05 a.m

here it comes the Penyakit-Mood-Serba tak kena...
pandang cermin je rasa sume tak kena...
semua i mean semua...
hidup,hati,badan,mood,kawan...aih...
lemak2 kat bdn yg takreti2 nak berkurang pffftt bencilah
spare tyre aku rasa dah mcm org mengandung 3 bulan gamaknya...
kerja menimbun2 masa takde...
makan tak tentu tapi takde r kurus pon
pastu takley nak makan sayur
masalah mental tak kurang2
ah semua lah
ape aje yg betul?


Wednesday, November 17, 2010

wednesday,17 november 2010,2.35 a.m

i'm not feeling well...perhaps get sick by the weather,or maybe the stress,or maybe i'm sick of myself heh....


oh tringin jugak nasi impit n rendang,tapi kalau kelas dr pg smpi ke malam tak ada maknanya...

salam aidiladha,dont worry i'm gonna be okay.

p/s:let me decide what i wanna do by myself this time.

Monday, November 15, 2010

monday,15 november 2010,4.40 p.m


''kesedihan terpendam''

aku rasa kesedihan terpendam aku,bila bertambah lama2 dlm hati,even aku x mampu ngs,aku tak mahu ngs,sampai satu thp,kesedihan tu akan paksa jugak airmata aku keluar

tdo ptg2 mmg xbaik,tp ttdo nk wat mcm mana...
dlm tdo aku mimpi,aku naik kereta api yg penuh dgn org2 yg aku pernah kenal,org yg aku sayang,family,kawan,org yg pernah jadi special

then smpi kat satu station,aku kena turun,aku rasa dgn family aku sekali,tp aku x ingt siapa yg ada sekali dgn aku.

n aku perasaan ade satu silhouette dr jauh yg mengangkat beg merah,berjalan menjauh aku,dan aku kenal itu siapa.i once love him,tp skrg i neither hate nor miss him...he is someone else destiny...

bila aku turun dr kereta api,keluar dr station,aku menangis gila2,i dont know why.
tp,bila org berbeg merah tu tak turun dr kereta api,n berjalan pergi dr aku,adakah org yg tak turun skali dgn aku kat station tu,org yg tggl dlm kereta api tu,maksudnya akan tgglkan aku jugak?

n i dont really remember adakah my whole family are now with me,outside the station?

jadi bila terjaga dr mimpi,punyalah basah dah menangis dlm mimpi,luar mimpi pon dah menangis,pastu smbg ngs...

i'm too scared to lose anyone that i have now...

ye aku tau,mimpi ptg2 syaitan suka kacau.

cuma ini cerita kesedihan terpendam,kesan drpd sedih bertambah,tp xboleh ngs,xmahu ngs.

air mata tu tetap mahu keluar.

monday,15 november 2010,12.05a.m





I'm smiling.

Do not worrry, I am fine, just go the way you were traveling
I’ve been so sorry for making things hard

I won’t give reasons or excuses anymore
Thank you for loving me thus far

When tears come out, I will smile, just the way you did for me
I am smiling like a fool, as I send you away

Please take care of that person, I still linger for that person
Once I love you I cannot let go of your hand
Once I send you away, I am hurting like this
It’s too late, but I am still happy

I don’t know why, you worried for me so much
You’ll never know how much I regret this

Because I am like you, I’ve suddenly become a lingering fool
I’ve become pitiful after you left

It’s laughable that I could not be with you when you were here and I am like this now after you left
I am smiling today by myself, I want to see you

Please take care of that person, I still linger for that person
Once I love you I cannot let go of your hand
Once I send you away, I am hurting like this
It’s too late, but I am still happy

As my tears hit the back of my hand without a sound
I should be smiling but I cried instead

When I think of that person, when I miss that person
Smiling and crying can no longer console me

Please take care of that person, for the last time
If I could see that person, I will smile brightly
If you see me...
please smile



p/s:can't you hear me?




Saturday, November 13, 2010

sunday,13 november 2010,2.46 a.m

thinking of you

sometimes,i put my hand on my chest,and said,

"hye my heart,are you okay today?how are you holding up?do you really exist here,or have you broken into pieces,and scattered by the cruel life's wind?"

when i feel their beat,i know it's there,longing for you.

what if someday they stop beating?

p/s:i'm sorry,i don't have the confidence now.



Friday, November 12, 2010

its raining outside



the truth is,i'm afraid of losing you..


Tuesday, November 9, 2010

tuesday,9 november 2010,1.31 a.m


I want to become a flowerpot at your small window
even if I won’t be able to say anything
from time to time, I’ll receive your smiles and touch
and I could watch your sleeping face endlessly


p/s:happy birthday abah,i'm sorry if i never know how to say that i love you so much


Friday, November 5, 2010

selamat pengantin baru


selamat pengantin baru kak eika~waaa...seronoknye kalau dpt pergi kenduri kahwin kak eika kan...takpe2...tak dpt pergi pon,kirim doa dr jauh jelah yg boleh lia buat :-)...

ucapan utk pengantin,
selamat pengantin baru...semoga kekal abadi,bahagia hingga akhir hayat...dapat anak comel2 nanti hehe.....



apa agaknya rase ade kakak/abg buat kenduri kawin?

friday,5 november 2010,3.26 a.m

im the one that decided to leave you,but why it feels like im the one that being left out?

life is funny,right?

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

wednesday,3 november 2010,11.29 p.m

i just hope that you're doing good...

cuz i'm not

Sunday, October 31, 2010

sunday,31 october 2010,10.19 p.m

i'm going crazy,
holding back,
all the words that i can't say
pretending like i don't even care

p/s:how are you?

Saturday, October 30, 2010

angels cry

I shouldn't have walked away
I would've stayed if you said
We could have made everything OK
But we just
Threw the blame back and forth
We treated love like a sport
The final blow hit so low
I'm still on the ground

I couldn't have prepared myself for this fall
Shattered in pieces curled on the floor
Super natural love conquers all
'Member we used to touch the sky

And lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love’s a gift
We let it drift
In a storm
Every night
I feel the angels cry

C'mon babe can our love be revived
Bring it back and we gon' make it right
I'm on the edge just tryin' to survive
As the angels cry

I thought we'd be forever & always
You were serenity,
You took away the bad days
Didnt always treat you right
But it was ok,
I do somethin stupid

And u will still stay with me
But u can only go for so long
Doin the one you claim to love wrong
Before to much is enough
You look up and find your love gone and

We were so good together
How come we could not weather
This storm and just do better
Why did we say good bye
Cause lighting don't strike
The same place twice
When you and i said good bye
I felt the angels cry

True love is a gift
We let it drift
In a storm
Now every night i hear the angels cry
True love is a gift

C'mon babe can our love be revived
Bring it back and we gon' make it right
I'm on the edge just tryin' to survive
As the angels cry
Baby I miss you
Know that i love you


p/s:can't i just stay by your side?

Thursday, October 28, 2010

i cut my finger today

i sprained my ankle

but it doesn't hurt

as much as my heart


and i found this somewhere


@-----}------


Kecantikan seorang lelaki bukan kepada rupa fizikal tetapi pada murni rohani. Lelaki yang cantik adalah:-

1) Lelaki yang mampu mengalirkan air mata untuk ingatan.

2) Lelaki yang sedia menerima segala teguran.

3) Lelaki yang memberi madu, setelah menerima racun.

4) Lelaki yang tenang dan lapang dada.

5) Lelaki yang sentiasa berbaik sangka.

6) Lelaki yang tak pernah putus asa.

Kecantikan lelaki berdiri di atas kemuliaan hati. Seluruh kecantikan yang ada pada Nabi Muhammad adalah kecantikan yang sempurna seorang lelaki…

Kegagahan seorang wanita bukan kepada pejal otot badan, tetapi pada kekuatan perasaan. Perempuan yang gagah adalah:-

1) Perempuan yang tahan menerima sebuah kehilangan.

2) Perempuan yang tidak takut pada kemiskinan.

3) Perempuan yang tabah menanggung kerinduan setelah ditinggalkan.

4) Perempuan yang tidak meminta-minta agar di penuhi segala keinginan.

Kegagahan perempuan berdiri di atas teguh iman. Seluruh kegagahan yang ada pada Khadijah adalah kegagahan sempurna bagi seorang perempuan.

Sabda Rasulullah SAW:

“Sebarkanlah ajaranku walaupun satu ayat ”

Surah Al-Ahzab : Ayat 71

“Nescaya Allah memperbaiki bagimu amalan-amalanmu dan mengampuni bagimu dosa-dosamu. Dan barangsiapa mentaati Allah dan Rasul-Nya, maka sesungguhnya ia telah mendapat kemenangan yang besar.”


@------}-----


when you're trying to be pretty,should i become tougher as time goes by.

i really need an answer ya Allah.


p/s:i wish we can press ctrl+z,well at least ctrl+n in our life.but we're human.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

tuesday,26 october 2010,11:24 p.m

i wake up early in the morning,as tears are crawling down my cheeks.
i look into a mirror,i try to fake a smile,but the only thing that appeared,are tears from my eyes.
i good thing lab finish at 6p.m today,i stay at school till 9 p.m.
when no one waiting at home,there's no use to come home early.

i try to talk,but there's no voice come out
there's no one to hear.

so just let the song tell you what inside.













p/s:please be happier than the time we laugh together.

Monday, October 25, 2010

monday,25 oct 2010,10:49 p.m


heyya~
like i said semalam..punyalah byk kan to do list nak buat hari ni...nasib baiklah 90% drpd list habis buat dah.
pagi2 dpt pergi jogging....tp dah tak jumpa pulak kucing yg selalu main2 kat tepi sungai tu...mane ek die pergi...
then lepas jogging rehat2 baring..
i dont know why bile tgk kat cermin,mata bengkak semacam..
bukan sebab tak tdo kann~
oh agaknya mungkin kot2 ade semut gigit mata ke kan heh..dah la mmg sepet bertambah sepet...
pkol 930 da siap2 mandi....byk sgt benda nak kena buat hari ni..tak sempat pikir benda lain...
then time mandi,maybe i brushed my teeth kuat sgt ke hape kan smpi nak termuntah,then my eyes turn red.i dont know what is that,tears,or else.
nama je mandi 930,kau melamun2 siap2..1030 jugak baru kuar rumah..

maaflah..ini lah muka org baru mandi,tanpa mekap,bermata sembab.mmg tak lawa i know haha


dan seperti yg telah dijangkakan oleh cik tenki youho a.k.a weather forcast..hari ni mmg hujan lah kan...nasib baik mula2 tak lebat,tp bile dah smpi bus stop start lebat dah.payung takde mmg besla main hujan...
haih nak kena beli basikal baru..basikal lama pencurik da curik tapi takpe la kira halal,bagus jugak die curik basikal tu haha
look at me
no bicycle,no umbrella,no friend...pathetic kan?yah i know
but oh lets not talk about how pathetic i am...i know me myself better then others...haha
tgh jalan2 dalam hujan terserempak pulak ngan mamu..
siapa mamu?haaaa...
jeng jeng jeng...
haha...striker kumamoto uiceh mentang2 baru lagi menang futsal kyushu haha...
baru balik klinik katanya..nasib baik lah tgn tu tak patah ke kecederaan dalaman ke..
tp still doc suh buat pemeriksaan lanjut kan...
hopefully takde pe lah...

lambat pulak bas dtg cih...org dah tercegat dr pkol 1040..
bas shud be arrived dalam pkol 1101,tapi tak sampai2 pooonnn...hujan lebat plak tu,bes btul...
nasib lah ade ipod kan...
tapi..ipod yg play lagu sedih+hujan+masalah hati...mmg satu kombo tak bagus...
mendung lagi langit hari ni rupanya*sambil mendongak pandang langit*...
n yay jugak~dapat makan udon...hee
udon ni berhantu seyh...
murah kot...udon mangkuk kecik(kalau kebulur amik r sederhana kn)+tako ten*eh yeke ini nama die?sotong goreng tepung r sng crita* cuma 242 yen..
tak ke heaven?
oh please tolong bukak satu kedai depan rumah saya,hari2 saya pergi makan kedai tu..
dah lah sekarang kelas pack,nak masak pon malas,nak makan pon malas,sume nye lah malas...

masalahnye,kenapa kena menung dekat kedai udon?
tak patot2...

so blah cepat2 dr kedai udon..harus byr bil!kalau tak internet kena potong matila...
dah la kau takde kawan,kau tggl sorg2,internet takde?sungguh 'indah' dunia heh..
n i bought the conditioner yay!
so hari ni lebih bes basuh rambut hihi...
tapikan,rambut mcm gugur lagi byk bila pakai conditioner..kenape hah?pelik2...
tak kira nak pakai jugak~:P

n dah beli basikal baru jugaaakkk~whoot2~basikal pink lagii..
haha amalia=pink..
boleh jugak diterima pakai equation tu..heh
takde la tak de kaler menarik dah...ade creame,oren*oren?* ngan hitam..kan lg lawa pink.. biarlah~suka hati la nak beli kaler pe heh..
mana gbr basikal?
ade tu ha dlm hp..malas la nak crik card reader...tayah tunjuk pon takpe kan?bukan basikal mahal sampai 10man pon..
gila la ade basikal mahal sampai 10man lebih..baik beli kereta macam tu apara....
ha...situ dah terbang duit 1man 3zen..
fuh hari ni total2 je dekat 3man..ingat kaya lah?
habis tu nak buat camne kan..duit byk2 pon takley bawak mati..
yg mana keperluan,takkan takmo beli,kan3?

then konon2 nak g tgk wayang..tp tgk2 jam,da 1240...wayang pkol 1255...pastu tak solat zohor lagi kan..malas la nak tgk..
sooooo,tak jadila tgk wayang..
n saya takde lah nangis dlm panggung wyg sorg2 hari ni haha

tak tgk wyg..trus gerak pergi pharm fac..wajib print result!
kalau tak puan zaharah potong duit?anda mau?haa..gelabah2...
baik hantar cepat sape yg tak htr lagi..tadi siap htr pakai pos laju punyalah cuak
cis habis 350yen htr surat sekeping je cih2..boleh dpt onigiri 4 ketul kenyang sehari

so habisla perjalanan meredah2 hujan hari ni...dah mmg tatau nak kayuh basikal pakai payung.
ape boleh buat?

lagipon,kalau mata hati basah dgn air mata,basah tempias hujan sikit pon tak rasa,kan?

okay i need to write my report..i have to finish it by myself skrg.
n rumah blm brapa nak kemas lagi
n baju belum habis lipat lagi
n sampah belum habis masukkan dlm plastik nak buang esok.
so how?
haha

doa2 moga esok tak hujan,baik langit atas sana,mahupun langit dlm hati..

p/s:i've try my best to hold my tears,but i failed.they wont stop as this pain is unbearable.