im home!!home as if,malaysia~
i miss the humid weather of malaysia.
even only for two weeks...
so,ada siapa2 nak buat meet up?hehe
isn't this pretty???
this is my bedroom,the sliding door's curtain side.
cant help but stare at them~^^
feels like christmas right?haha.
one more thing,i love listening to bossa nova+jazz.make me feel like im in a warm and cozy cafe,dim light,nice comfortable sofa,a cup of hot coffee,and a soulmate.:)
good night everyone.
p/s:when i can't speak,i sing it.
p/s:happy birthday to you too.*blow the candles*
I've been alone with you inside my mindAnd in my dreams I've kissed your lips a thousand timesI sometimes see you pass outside my doorHello, is it me you're looking for?
Is it me you're looking for?'Cause I wonder where you are...And I wonder what you do...Are you somewhere feeling lonely,or is someone loving you?Tell me how to win your heart...For I haven't got a clue...But let me start by saying...I love you...
i do love cats.harini,ondaway balik rumah dari jogging,i found a cat on the roadside.selalunya kucing sini tak peramah,nampak org je terus lari.mungkin sebab kucing org bela je semua.tapi kucing tadi lain.sebab dia comot2,mcm takde org bela,kurus,mata pun comot2 ade taik mata.mungkin sebab tu bila dtg dekat dgn dia,dia tak lari.i play with her a couple of minutes,so dia manja2 la,gesel2 kat kaki sume.tapi sebab dah nak maghrib,nak bukak puasa so kena balik.then i need to say goodbye to her.bila jalan,then toleh belakang,still lagi nampak dia pandang dgn mata sayu.no matter how many times i turn back,she still looking at me.why do i feel sad about this situation?rasa mcm nak nangis pun ada.mungkin sebab i feel like im having the same situation with that cat?tak lawa,comot2,sorg2,then when someone come to play with me,when the time comes,they need to left me?mungkin....
I met you...fall in love...and get hurt by that loveJust watching you from where i am,I must be a fool...When you cried,I cried...When you smiled,I smiled...Like a child, just copying whatever you do,I must be a fool...Even when I say I love you,I guess you can’t hear me...Even if I say this is love,I guess you don’t know it...I guess you can't see my tears pouring down from my heart...Even if I call out your name,I guess you can’t hear me...Even when I say you are the only one for me,I guess you don’t know it...I guess I can't have this blind love,this foolish love...Please look behind you just once,I’m behind you.When you are tired from another love,When you are hurt by another love,Please look behind you just once...Even when I say I love you,I guess you can’t hear me...Even if I say this is love,I guess you don’t know it...I guess you can't see my tears pouring down from my heart...Even if I call out your name,I guess you can’t hear me...Even when I say you are the only one for me,I guess you don’t know it...My blind love,my foolish love...Today I call you a thousand times again...I know you can’t hear me,but i still call on you...Because I love you,So please look at me...Because I love only you,So please come to me...If you come just one step closer,I will wait for you right there...I’m sorry,because I only know you...Because I can't live without you.My stubborn love calls on only you...But you don’t know…
hari sabtu lepas pertama kali derma darah.sikit excited heh.sempena nak bulan Ramadhan ni ape salahnya kita buat amal kebajikan lebih...
tapi apa yang penting,before kita boleh derma darah kan ade medical check kan.so dari situ dapat tgk,tekanan darah pun dah kurang berbanding last time buat medical check up masa bulan 4 lepas,tak ingat exactly berapa tapi rasanya dalam 140/90 mmHg,heartbeat sampai 90 per minute ape ke hal nya..yup,mmg tinggi.masa tu mmg sungguh2 stress dengan mcm2,masalah emosi,tak cukup tidur,kerja banyak masalah banyak,makan tak tentu,lepas tu berat pun taknak berat nak dekat2 overweight pulak kan.now its not semua masalah dah takde.hidup kalau tak de masalah mungkin bukan hidup.maybe i've learn how to encounter each of them slowly?hmmso this time tekanan darah dah kurang jadi around hmmm berapa ek?125/75 mmHg?lebih kurang la tak ingt.heartbeat pun dah kurang jadi 70++ per minute.tak ingaaatt..nurse tu tulis laju sgt.a healthy diet really make a big different.no oily food,fast food,sweets etc2...jogging and exercising..but its just sooooo hard!!!Tuhan je yang tau macam mana susahnya.lagi2 untuk manusia yang kat atas ni yang tak makan sayur n buah.the only sayur yg boleh makan is mix vege,n buah pun setakat berry2 n kismis?sadis...if only i can eat veges n fruits i dont think it'll be as hard as this..i certainly will eat salad for most of my meals..sob3..im worried,mcm mana agaknya balik malaysia nanti.makanan malaysia semuanya membimbangkan..not that they're sooo bad,tapi diri sendiri yg tak boleh nak control nafsu makan kot.
tangan yang dah berbaluttak amik gambar masa derma sebab datang sorg2,takde org nak amikkan gambar.sebenarnya tak sakit pun rupanya derma darah.sakitla sikit masa mula2 cucuk tu but then dah tak sedar pun tup2 dah habis amik,dok borak2 ngan nurse yang baik tu.that's one of the thing that i love about japanese people.they're so kind and friendly,tambah2 lagi bila kita tahu cakap bahasa diorg,berton2 dapat pujian.yes diorg mmg mulut manis,kita mesti akan cakap 'alah tah ye tah tidak dorg puji tu ikhlas' but hey,something nice that make you smile isn't a bad thing kan?
ramai sebenarnya org yang datang derma darah ni,budak2 sekolah pun ade datang.that is so impressive.sebab tak pernah derma darah kat malaysia,kinda wonder,kalau kat malaysia pun seramai ni ke org derma darah?org yg jaga kaunter tu sebenarnya sgt risau bila nampak foreigner masuk because they think that they need to speak in english.haha dont worry,lecture punya bahasa jepun lebih complicated dari ni,im used to it.
perempuan boleh derma darah setiap 4 bulan sekali.n i think im gonna do it once in 4 months mulai dari skrg.it's a good thing right?helping other people that might need our blood to continue their life.and it's also good for our health,for the blood circulation.so i can't see any reason not to do it.im happy that i know i can help other people.maybe because im not really happy with things going on around me right now?i dont knowwhen you're not happy,the best thing to do is,try to make people around you happy.:)selamat berpuasa kepada semua umat islam baik di mana juga kita berada.semoga Ramadhan kali ni kita dilimpahi dengan barakah dari-Nya insyaAllah..
I will forget you...Starting today...I don’t know you...I have never seen you.We never even walked pass eachother.I’m okay...I forgot everything...I’m happy with my busy life...I’ve met a great person too...Love is always like this...It fades away after some time...Can’t even remember it...When love goes away...another love comes again...It definitely will...Even if it hurts now...it will heal a little later...It will forget...I will too...It’s not difficult...I will forget everything after today...I’m just getting used to my changed life...Love is always like this...It fades away after some time...Can’t even remember it...I will erase everything...I definitely will...When love goes away...another love comes again...It definitely will...Even if tears fall now...I will smile a little later...I will forget you...Just like a wound heals...I will...I will...I will forget you...
i have no intention on bragging myself.in fact,if you think im bragging myself right now,its up to you.your brain,your thought.kalau masa sekolah rendah selalu top3,sekolah menengah mungkin kadang2 masuk top10kadang2 terkeluar,AAJ?well hmm nak kata makin teruk tu tak tapi tak stabil.but now,to be rank as 53rd place daripada 56 org,its just,disappointing me....well at least there are 3 japanese people below me.that hardly score even though they learn all this stuff in their own language.but stil....sebenarnya,baik tak payah tau.dari awal dah tau nak jd top12 so that dapat priority untuk pilih lab mana nak masuk,itu adelah mustahil.mungkin sepatutnya tak payah amik result tu hari ni.so,in your eyes,do i still look like im bragging myself?-_-"
p/s:ntahlah,mungkin sindrom hormon tak stabil grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!
I must've been wrongI must've believed that you were someone who passes byI didn't realize that it was this painfulI thought it would just sting and go away quicklyI thought love was just a common thingBut strangely, as the days pass byAs I quickly try to meet other peopleYou become more focused in my lifeYou stay inside my headDid I love you this much?How are you? Are you like me?Is your heart hurting like mine?We just can't.. We just can't seperateLet's meet again.. We should meet againLike before...As I remember the pastAs I count the precious memoriesThere was no one like youYou were so good to meI can see you better from afar...How are you? Are you like me?Is your heart hurting like mine?We just can't.. We just can't seperateLet's meet again.. We should meet againLike before...I'll go there first and wait for youAt the place where we first met..Perhaps you aren't coming back because you don't know how I feelMaybe it's a good thing that we've tried breaking upMaybe it's a good thing that I've tried living without youNow I realize how much I want you..Now I.. Now I love you...More than you love me..
esok paper first.organic chemistry.entahlah.senang ckp,sebenarnya tak paham ape pun ape yang belajar sampai skrg.mungkin bukan untuk organic chem je,subjek lain pun byk yg tak paham.nak tawakal pun,berbanding tawakal,mungkin harus pasrah.entahlah.betul-betul entah.p/s:damnlah!!!!binatang paling membencikan bila summer da start2 muncul!besa pulak tu lipas rumah ni.bongoklaaaaa....haih.nak tido pun tak tenang
11/7 organic chemistry final exam14/7 repeat paper:environmental hygiene lab test15/7 microbiology final exam19/7 radioactive lab test22/7 radioactive lab report deadline25/7 drug and therapy test27/7 pharmacognosy final exam1/8 pharmaceutics final exam2/8 radiochemistry final exam3/8 health and pharmaceutical final exam4/8 english for medical final examand ade lagi 4 paper final yg tatau bila lagi,dan jugak mungkin paper exam akan bertambah tgh2 tu disebabkan tak pass so kena amik repeat examthe battle hasn't even started,but the confidence level won't go up.the truth is,im kinda scared.too many things to do.one month of final exam is certainly not fun!hmmplease Allah,make everything easier for me,and whenever i fail on something,don't let me disappointed and sad.always remind me that if i fail,i just need to try it again until i succeed.kan?Amin.
If you see himTell him I wish him wellHow am I doing?Well, sometimes is hard to tellI still miss him more than everBut please dont say a wordIf you see himIf you see himIf you see herTell her I'm doing fineAnd if you want toSay that I think of her from time to timeAsk her if she ever wondersWhere we both went wrongIf you see herIf you see herI still want herI still need him soI dont know why we let each other goIf you see herTell her the lights still on for herNothing's changedDeep down the fire still burns for himAnd even if it takes forever say I'll still be hereIf you see himIf you see herIf you see himIf you see her
On Rainy Days
p/s:orang kata,kalau seseorang muncul dalam mimpi kita,maknanya dia rindukan kita.i'll prove it wrong.
Pernahkah engkau hargaicintaku yang sejatipernahkah engkau mengertiakan diriku iniBetapa hebatnya cintamumemberiku sejuta pilubetapa agungnya asmaramumembuatku terpakuDisisimu aku terdiam seribu bahasadihatiku bergetar sejuta rasanamun sukar untuk aku meluahkankucinta padamuNafasku terhenti bila melihat dirimuterasa batas degupan jantungkumungkinkah hatimu milikku juakusayang padamuKan kuabadikan dikausuatu kenangan yang manisyang tak mungkin aku lupauntuk selamanyaKan kucoretkan kenanganmudalam sanubariku inidapat jadi yang terindahdi dalam hidupku iniDisisimu aku terdiam seribu bahasadihatiku bergetar sejuta rasanamun sukar untuk aku meluahkankucinta padamuNafasku terhenti bila melihat dirimuterasa batas degupan jantungkumungkinkah hatimu milikku juakusayang padamuBagai bahtera yang dilanda badaiGelora cintamuMengoncang jiwakuBerombak mencariDaratan yang damaiOhhh cintakuDisisimu aku terdiam seribu bahasadihatiku bergetar sejuta rasanamun sukar untuk aku meluahkankucinta padamuNafasku terhenti bila melihat dirimuterasa batas degupan jantungku inimungkinkah hatimu milikku juakusayang padamuAku coretkan kenanganmudalam sanubariku iniagar jadi yang terindahdalam hidupku ini
When the world turns darkAnd the rain quietly fallsEverything is stillEven today, without a doubtI can’t get out of itI can’t get out from the thoughts of youNowI know that it’s the endI know that it’s all just foolishnessNow I know that it’s not trueI am just disappointed in myself forNot being able to get a hold of you because of that prideOn the rainy days you come and find meTorturing me through the nightWhen the rain starts to stop, you followSlowly, little by little, you will stop as wellI must be drunk, I think I need to stop drinkingSince the rain is falling, I think I might fall as wellWell this doesn’t mean that I miss you, no it doesn’t mean thatIt just means that the time we had together was a bit sharpWhen it’s the type of day that you really likedI keep opening the raw memories of youMaking the excuse that it’s all memories, I take a step forwardI don’t even make the effort to escapeNowI erased all of youI emptied out all of youBut when the rain falls againAll the memories of you I hid with effortIt all comes back, it must be looking for youOn the rainy days you come and find meTorturing me through the nightWhen the rain starts to stop, you followSlowly, little by little, you will stop as wellTo you..Now there is no path for me to returnBut looking at your happy faceI will still try to laugh since I was the oneWithout the strength to stop you....On the rainy days you come and find meTorturing me through the nightWhen the rain starts to stop, you followSlowly, little by little, you will stop as wellWhat can I do about something that already ended?I’m just regretting after like the stupid fool I amRain always falls so it will repeat againWhen it stops, that’s when I will stop as wellRain always falls so it will repeat againWhen it stops, that’s when I will stop as well....
지금 생각해도 가슴 떨려수줍게 넌 내게 고백했지내리는 벚꽃 지나 겨울이 올 때까지언제나 너와 같이 있고 싶어아마비 오던 여름날 밤이었을거야추워 입술이 파랗게 질린 나 그리고 그대내 손을 잡으며 입술을 맞추고떨리던 나를 꼭 안아주던 그대이제와 솔직히 입맞춤보다 더떨리던 나를 안아주던그대의 품이 더 좋았어내가 어떻게 해야 그댈 잊을 수 있을까우리 헤어지게 된 날부터내가 여기 살았었고그대가 내게 살았었던 날들나 솔직히 무섭다그대 없는 생활 어떻게 버틸지함께한 시간이 많아서 였을까생각할수록 자꾸만 미안했던 일이 떠올라나 솔직히 무섭다어제처럼 그대 있을 것만 같은데하루에도 몇 번 그대 닮은 뒷모습에가슴 주저앉는 이런 나를 어떻게 해야 하니그댄 다 잊었겠지내 귓가를 속삭이면서 사랑한다던 고백그댄 알고 있을까내가 얼마나 사랑했는지또 얼마를 그리워해야 그댈 잊을 수 있을지난 그대가 아프다언제나 말없이 환히 웃던 모습못난 내 성격에 너무도 착했던그대를 만난 건정말이지 행운 이었다 생각해난 그대가 아프다여리고 순해서 눈물도 많았었지이렇게 힘든데이별을 말한 내가 이 정돈데그대는 지금 얼마나 아플지난 그대가 아프다난 그 사람이 미안해난 난 그 사람이 아프다