Tuesday, April 26, 2011
































































kosong



p/s:lia~*sambil tongkat dagu*:(

Sunday, April 24, 2011

it's okay even if it's hurts...






''Does it hurt because of loving you?
Is it the punishment for loving you so much?
Even though you say that I can lose everything
It's okay if I just have you to be with me

Even if my heart is broken when loving you
Even if my heart is separated when waiting for you
It's okay because I love you
It's okay even if I get hurt''





p/s:untold longing.

i don't think so.

this is the soundtrack of the Wong Fu Production 'Stangers,again...'




Just give it to me quick
Are you coming home?
Don't dance around it

I need to hear this
I chose you long ago
Have you chosen me yet?

'Cause I'm starting to wear thin, find it harder to forgive
Every time you let us slip down your list of priorities

I'm waiting for you to finally say you're here and here to stay
But darling, if you know that it's through
You can't keep doing what you do
If it's time to let go of you

Now please don't take this wrong
You know I want you
But don't think I won't move on

'Cause I'm starting to wear thin, find it harder to forgive
Every time you let us slip down your list of priorities

I'm waiting for you to finally say you're here and here to stay
But darling, if you know that it's through
You can't keep doing what you do
If it's time to let go of

You once whispered words to me
Wondering if anybody loved each other like we do

I'm waiting for you to finally say you're here and here to stay
But darling, if you know that it's through
You can't keep doing what you do
If it's time to let go of you
Time to let go of you




everyone can relate to the lyrics right?


p/s:did i stop playing the game that i've created?
did i give up on my own strategies,
when the opponent's wall is so hard to break through?


i don't think so.do you?

Friday, April 22, 2011

strangers,again...


this touch my heart.
when thinking about people that once a stranger to us,
then they became the most important person in our life,
but finally,
we're strangers...

again.

make my heart thinking,
i'd rather being strangers to everyone from the beginning,
not knowing anyone,
than being strangers...

again.




p/s:stage 4,comfortable.i miss that word.even it's not 'i love you'.

Monday, April 18, 2011



Hello, hello, hello, hello, hello.
Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry, don't, hello.

My heart refuses to let you go, no matter how hard I try.
I continue to hold onto you even though it causes me to hurt more.
When you first saw me, did you fall in love with me?
These tears have become painful.

You've done well, well done.
Were you planning on hurting me?
The more I think about it, the more I hate it.
I don't know what to think anymore.

Heart...
please don't fall in love anymore.
I want to laugh again, I want to forget you.
I'll send all my love away, back to you.
Even though it's painful,i'll smile and say 'goodbye'...

I can't help but think about it when I have nothing to do.
Can't you see that I'm full of tears?
If you just ended up walking away, why even bother looking at me in the first place?
My eyes begin to sting again.

You've done well, well done.
Were you planning on hurting me?
The more I think about it, the more I hate it.
I don't know what to think anymore.

Heart...
please don't fall in love anymore.
I want to laugh again, I want to forget you.
I'll send all my love away, back to you.
Even though it's painful,i'll smile and say 'goodbye'...

Hello, hello, hello, hello, hello.
Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry, don't, hello.
It's alright, love, let it go and learn to laugh again.

Everything worked out, it'll be fine.
Maybe one day I'll think of this again.
One day, you'll be in this kind of pain.
One day, you'll be the one crying.

Heart...
please don't fall in love anymore.
I want to laugh again, I want to forget you.
I'll send all my love away, back to you.
Even though it's painful,i'll smile and say 'goodbye'...


p/s:its not a 'goodbye',its just 'be right back'.

Thursday, April 14, 2011

late

what if i'm already too late without im noticing that?
what if the thing i hope,is just some pathetic imagination?
what if,there's nothing left there for me.





i just hope...im not late...too late,that everything has changed

Monday, April 11, 2011

everything is a mess.

im in lost.with all the hectic life,and all the others emotionally problems dont go well.sampai bila nak berlari,lari dari masalah...sampai bila nak sembunyikan diri.i dont know.i just dont have the confidence to face all the problems yet.i wanna try to face it,but im just scared that it'll hurt me so bad till the point that i cant be able to stand up.until i can barely breathing.i might look strong,but who knows how much i cry in my sleep.

because i have nobody to help me here,so i need to protect myself,my heart first.im sorry if the fact that im running away make you feel guilty,i just dont mean it.n i know you all the pain,you dont mean it.even if you dont mean it,it hurts me a lot..im also sorry for all the pain i gave you.

in front of me,i have two different choices that i dont really like both of it;running away till all this crazy stuff end,and only after that i face our problem,or face the problem now,n i might tear apart,fall onto the ground,not being able to do any work,living my life like a living corpse.

because i need to protect myself,ive choose the first choice.but im afraid,by that time,youre no longer be there.youve gone with another person that gives you the attention you always want.ya Allah,make me choose the best choice for me.

as im too afraid of losing him...

p/s:takut

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

insyaAllah.

this lyrics touch my heart.

Andainya kau rasa tak berupaya
Hidup sendirian tiada pembela
Segalanya suram
Bagai malam yang kelam
Tiada bantuan tiada tujuan
Janganlah berputus asa
Kerana Allah bersamamu

Insya Allah Insya Allah Insya Allah
Ada jalannya
Insya Allah Insya Allah Insya Allah
Ada jalannya

Andainya dosamu berulang lagi
Bagai tiada ruang untuk kembali
Dikau keliru atas kesilapan lalu
Membelenggu hati dan fikiranmu
Janganlah berputus asa
Kerana Allah bersamamu


Kembalilah
Kepada Yang Esa
Yakin padaNya
Panjatkanlah doa
Oh Ya Allah
Pimpinlah daku dari tersasar
Tunjukkan daku ke jalan yang benar
Jalan yang benar
Jalan yang benar
Jalan yang benar







i feel so small,so lonely,so scared lately,as im afraid to face this upcoming life.
insyaAllah,everything's gonna be fine.amin...

Monday, April 4, 2011

new

dah lama tak update this blog..n thanks for my friend sebab promote me,n suddenly this blog followers jadi 51(masa aku menaip ni 51 lah)thank you2...but im actually not so into blogging,hanya berblog bila rasa teringin menulis,atau ada sesuatu yang perlu ditulis,atau tengah emo atau PMS HAHA!i must admit,im such an emotional person.so,mula2 sekali im so sorry if im dissapointed any of the followers pada masa akan dtg,yes you can freely unfollow me hehe.kalau blog ni cuma merepek2 sahaja....yes you know,people that study overseas sometimes can be so lonely that they only have their fb,twitter,n blog to talk to kan,heh.so im sorry guys...

n here is the latest cover.love IU voice.




im a normal person.im friendly tapi mungkin tak semua masa.maaf juga kalau ada tersinggung apa2,saya cuma manusia biasa,tak lepas dari kesilapan.n i can say im emotionally unstable hehe.mood selalu berubah.yep2.its a common problem i know.

my new sem start on 8th april,n everytime the new sem begins,everything's seems like heavier,n scarier.the study,the life,etc...im always start with zero spirit,zero confidence level,n zero effort.sometimes i wonder'kenapa aku pilih nak blajar farmasi kat jpn if im already know that im sooo lazy to study?'

so guys wish me luck okay?baru tgk manual lab dah rasa sgt2 berat hati 'OMG can i survive this time?'yeah thats me.critical thinker maybe.

after all,ive chose this path,i cant turn back n choose another road.i must admit,the world seems scarier,n im scared.

*but why this post becomes heavier too huh?*

back to the point,keep supporting me n wish me luck untuk setiap hari mendatang.i'll try my best to write something here heh.

p/s:im not the silent type of person,but sometimes its hard to express what you have in your heart into words,and talk to someone about it.for the time being,i've talk so much to Allah n i know He's listening every word ive said,n He'll grant my wish.Amin...